We all Like Sheep Have Gone Astray
We all Like Sheep Have Gone Astray
Isaiah 53:6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us have turned to our own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all
Today I had an interesting conversation with a man who a dealer in the drug industry. He is a Drug dealer. His name is Frank. We had a long conversation that reminded me of my younger brother Christopher, who was also a drug dealer. Christopher is now serving 12+ years in a penitentiary).
Frank said he messed up again and may be facing a significant amount of time in prison for his actions. As a result he feels he is under a “generational curse,” since he is facing second prison term. If that weren’t bad enough, Frank’s girlfriend recently gave birth to twins. He said he’d searched hi-and-low, and he just couldn’t find a job. Unbeknownst to his girlfriend, he resorted to selling drugs.
Unsure of what the future holds, she’s now raising their three children by herself. This story demonstrates how the “sins of the father” can affect a child’s life.
Drugs and Narcotics
Illegal sales is the buying, or abuse of drugs or narcotics and it influences the lives of close to 65% of American families. Most of us know someone caught-up drug abuse. I have first hand experience with this, as it has affected my family. In the early 1980’s, My folks moved to Connecticut from Jamaica West Indies. After a couple years there we relocated to Maryland.
My brother, Christopher, was a few years younger than my sister and I. He loved excitement and the finer things and in my opinion he had a great childhood. For all the things he loved and wanted he chose to take great risks in order to get them. As a result he would soon find thing would not always go his way.
Hanging With the Wrong Crowd
As a teenager Christopher began hanging with the wrong crowd and soon he began living at a drug house in the hood. In his view, his family was more of a burden keeping his from a life of money and pleasure. He became more angry around us and seemed to lash out with everyone he disagreed with.
We all Like Sheep Have Gone Astray
Christopher had a different dad than my sister and I. My Mother divorced my dad when I was about four years old. For the next twenty years our Mother lived with her boyfriend Leo. Christopher was the obvious favorite. He was the cute one. My mother loved his dad and he was Leo’s son. He was spoiled rotten. It seemed he got everything he wanted. Of course, if you ask mom, she would say, “Noooowaaay, thats just not truuuuue!” However when Christopher got grounded, he whined and whined. My mother would overturn her previous ruling and allow Christopher to go outside and play. It stirred up anger, hurt and resentment in my sister and I. We often found it disturbing to watch.
We all Like Sheep Have Gone Astray
By the time Christopher had turned eighteen he’d served a few stints in juvenile detention. At age 19 Chris impregnated his girlfriend and had a son. He was well on his way to prison for drug related crimes. My mother assumed responsibility in raising my nephew Lemont during my brothers five year incarceration. Christopher’s girlfriend wasn’t ready to raise a child nor do I think she wanted to. Her parents were addicts, which is how she met my brother.
Mom raised Lemont in the church. She would take him there every chance she got. Over the years my Mother became a prayer warrior and demanded something better for her grandson. At that tender age Lemont loved the Lord. He had childlike faith. He loved Jesus and he loved going to church. He loved going to the Christian school he attended. His Grandmother scraped every penny she could find, to ensure he received the best education. She was determined that her grandson would turn out good.
Christopher and his girlfriend decided to wed while he was incarcerated. When Lemont was five, my brother was released from prison. Upon his release prison, Christopher settled in with his wife and soon came for his son.
My mom dreaded the day when her son would come and remove Lemont. She had invested so much time and love in him. Mom pleaded with Christopher, but it fell on deaf ears. Rather than thanking her for caring for his son, he blamed her for screwing with his mind. Chris was embarrassed at how his son turned out. How soft he was or how white he acted. He disliked the songs he sang about Jesus. He didn’t like how his son dressed or talked or thought, so he would have to change that! His attitude was, “I’m going to show you!”
“You need to act black”
Christopher entered the drug trade again and I guess because he didn’t “snitch” (street term for ratting/telling) when he went to prison, he was trusted and now allowed into the big leagues. He bought himself a Jaguar as a symbol of his new found success. He pulled his son from Christian school. He told his five year old, “You need to act black. You need to dress black.” Christopher had no time for anyone who got in his way and he had no time for his “bible thumping brother.” He replaced Lemont’s music collection with hardcore rap to reprogram his son in his own image. The light at the end of the tunnel was that Lionel spent time with his grandmother on some weekends.
After many months of reprogramming, Lemont changed. He began liking his new surroundings. He made new friends. His Father was soon rearrested on new charges and went to prison for another five years. When Lionel was ten years old, he no longer wanted to visit his grandmother. She was crushed.
I had been a long haul truck driver for several years. During a visit to my mother’s home she expressed her desire for me to take him on a trip. He happened to be visiting that weekend. He was thirteen years old. And he was having communication problems while living with his mother. The mother was afraid of him.
He grabbed his bag and got into the truck. I took Lemont with me from Maryland to New York. He seemed to enjoy himself. I picked up a Load at the Jacob Javic center in Manhattan and headed to Miami and then went home to Tampa bay Florida for a few days.
He no longer had a heart for God
Lemont had changed from the young boy I knew. He no longer had a heart for God. He was consumed with listening to dirty rap music. The music was his focal point and he let me know it. Lamont spoke about his father as a hero who was just having a string of bad luck. I was glad to get the time to spend with him before taking him back to Maryland. At that time, my prayer for Lionel was that God would change him by whatever means. I asked God to humble him and shake his life up so he would be saved. Our Father hears prayer.
The Best Laid Plans
Christopher was about to be released from prison when the FEDS, stepped in. They got some of his cohorts to testify against him, for something that had happened years ago. He received an additional 12-18 years in prison.
Lemont began selling drugs
Lemont began selling drugs. His mother was no longer able to manage him. He spent some time in prison and was released. His Father saw Lemont’s life mirroring his. He saw the same cycle all over again in his son and he feared for him. He expressed his regret to my Mother about his mistakes with Lemont so many years ago and asked if she would help him. Mom prayed for Lemont as she always did.
Towards the middle of 2012, new reached me that Lemont had been shot. The round entered his chest and missed his heart, but shattered his spinal cord. Lionel is unable to move any part of his body below his arms. From what I hear, Lionel met a girl he liked and decided to settle down. He stopped dealing in drugs and started changing his life. The Drug industry disagreed with his choice and took retribution.
The wages of sin is death
The Bible Says, “The wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” that means when we sin, we receive a payment of death in some area of our life. For example when we cheat on our taxes, cheat on our spouse, steal. Death comes to our finances, to our marriages, or to our freedom etc. For we like sheep have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.http://www.diabetesreversed.com/letter.php
A long time ago my brother told me he would only live his life in such a way that he could have all the pleasure he thought he deserved. In Luke 12:19 “And I will say to my soul, soul, thou hast much good laid up for many years; take thine ease, eat, drink, and be merry. 20 But God said unto him, Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee: then whose shall those things be, which thou hast provided?” Does it really matter what we make plans for if we are not walking in the will of our heavenly Father? God promises to bless our plans if we seek, trust and obey him. The bible also says that sin is only pleasurable for a season. Seasons are short lived. But his pleasures are forevermore.
I am the way, the truth and the life
Jesus says in (John 14:6) “I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father (Father God), except through me.” Jesus is the doorway to heaven you need him in your life. He is the author and the finisher of your faith. If you do or sell drugs, I want you to know that Jesus Christ (The Creator of Heaven and earth) loves you and died for your sins. The Bible says He (God) is not willing that any should perish. He loves you and he wants you to be saved. If you ask him into your heart today, if you truly want to be save, if you repent, He will save you right where you are. John 3:16 Says, “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whomever (me and you) believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of Gods one and only Son.”
Jeremiah 29:11 say For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future.
Thank God that He broke the power of sin so that we could be set free from it.
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